It's BaAAAcccKKKKkkkkk....

(My apologies for the tacky shot of me in the background)

Day 02 - A picture of you and the person you have been close with for the longest

My siblings. I love them! I've known them all my life, and they are my favorite people in the whole world. I miss them when they're not around, and I'm the happiest when they are. I wouldn't change them for the world!

Day 1: A picture of yourself with 15 facts

• As of today, there are exactly 126 days until my birthday.
• I hate running, but I loved cross country and I miss it a lot.
• (see above picture) when I was younger, people used to call me Shirley Temple :)
• I like to read. A lot.
• Studying people is fascinating to me. How they interact, how their minds work.... the whole deal.
• I have never broken a bone.
• I almost had to have heart surgery when I was a baby.
• I've only been hospitalized once, and that was when I was diagnosed with diabetes.
• Although I've only been hospitalized once, I have over four doctors/medical professionals that I see quite often.
• Hearing about broken bones and all that stuff grosses me out, so I could never be a doctor.
• I think being a doctor would be amazing though :)
• I should be doing my homework now.
• learning about serial killers and the holocaust are both very fascinating to me.
• If you call me blonde, I will shoot you. (not really, but still)
• I have an irrational fear of touching creepy pictures of animals on the pages of books.

30 Days of Pictures

So...... someone I was at EFY with had this on her Facebook. 30 days of photos; fun beans, huh? Starting today I will (try to) post a picture every day and see how things go. I figure that I don't use my blog for much else, so why not?

Day 01 - A picture of yourself with fifteen facts.
Day 02 - A picture of you and the person you have been close with for the longest.
Day 03 - A picture of the cast from your favorite show.
Day 04 - A picture of your day.
Day 05 - A picture of your favorite memory.
Day 06 - A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day.
Day 07 - A picture of your most treasured item.
Day 08 - A picture that makes you laugh.
Day 09 - A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most.
Day 10 - A picture of the person you do the most messed up things with.
Day 11 - A picture of something you hate.
Day 12 - A picture of something you love.
Day 13 - A picture of your favorite band or artist.
Day 14 - A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without.
Day 15 - A picture of something you want to do before you die.
Day 16 - A picture of someone who inspires you.
Day 17 - A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently.
Day 18 - A picture of your biggest insecurity.
Day 19 - A picture of you when you were little.
Day 20 - A picture of somewhere you'd love to travel.
Day 21 - A picture of something you wish you could forget.
Day 22 - A picture of something you wish you were better at.
Day 23 - A picture of your favorite book.
Day 24 - A picture of something you wish you could change.
Day 25 - A picture of your day.
Day 26 - A picture of something that means a lot to you.
Day 27 - A picture of yourself and a family member.
Day 28 - A picture of something you're afraid of.
Day 29 - A picture that can always make you smile.
Day 30 - A picture of someone you miss.

I sing in the shower like nobody's business.

I often stay up late watching chick flicks because I don't want anyone to see me cry at the sappy parts.

I have a random love for nuts. Last year I was addicted to peanuts, and now I am addicted to almonds--not the roasted, sugary carnival kinds--straight almonds.

I sometimes fantasize that I am a famous dancer, which could never be possible because:

a) I took dance for two years when I was REALLY little

b) I am not flexible

c) I have absolutely NO rhythm whatsoever

and,

d) I am a member of the Farmer family

I also fantasize about being Harry Potter and/or being at Hogwarts. Although, if I was at Hogwarts I would be a Ravenclaw, not a Gryffindor.

I have an insane fear of heights and I hate it. I've always wanted to have a tree house (much less climb up into one), but every time I start climbing the ladder to one, I start to shake so violently it's almost as if I'm having a seizure.

I am O.C.D. about grades. I don't just want to get good grades; it's as if I have to. This may make me sound all stuck up and goody-goody, but I don't know what I'd do if I wasn't good at school. I've always been the nerdy one!

I've got my life planned out for me: I'm going to marry an insanely rich guy and go travel the world/live in England. Although, if I did live in England, I wouldn't want to live in a mansion even if my husband was rich. I would live in one of those quaint English cottages.

I love to volunteer. My favorite thing about having diabetes is that there seems to be more opportunities for me to volunteer at diabetes-related activities and such. The sad thing is, I've had conflicts the past year or so and haven't been able to do it.

I love classical music. I would never ever listen to it on my iPod, but I absolutely go giddy if it is played on the piano. It's so beautiful.

I also love rap, but mostly just Eminem.

On this little music kick, I like almost every kind of musical genre, except opera. Give me some country: love it. Rap: sweet. Pop: Pretty good (now, if you were to make me listen to JB or Smiley Miley Cyrus, that's a whole different story). Indie: awesome! Rock: pretty cool. Just no opera, thank you very much.

My favorite SNL actor is Kristen Wiig, and if you haven't seen any of her videos, go here and watch some of her videos.These aren't all of the skits she's been in, so if you like her, go searching for more!

Oh, speaking of great videos, if you haven't seen this music video, please do. I think it's hilarious, but maybe that's just me.

That's a little bit about me. Marissa Ann Farmer. Take it or leave it, it's what makes me me, what makes me happy, and I don't change for nobody.

Branded

I float through a sea of nameless faces,

People I should know but don’t.

They appraise me with their all-knowing gaze,

Deciding my social status with a single glance,

Am I a nerd?

A band geek?

A nobody?

A freak?

Where I live, these labels are determined for you,

Not based on who you are,

But based on how you dress,

Your body type,

And what you look like.

This is why I shuffle along, day after day,

And wonder,

What name is branded onto my forehead?

This week in my life....

This week has been a really tough one on me, both physically and emotionally. Sometimes when I have trials I question why they happen to me, or why I seem to feel so alone when they do. Then Brother Young said something in seminary (yeah, I know, good little church girl here) that really hit me. He said that sometimes when we go through rough times we expect the Lord to show his love for us in a certain way, and then when he does help and comfort us, we don't realize it because we're expecting this totally different thing to happen. I know that I don't expect to receive a vision or anything telling me it'll be ok, but sometimes I just get it into my mind that the Lord will answer my plea in a certain way, and then I feel even worse when it doesn't happen that way. Sometimes I even feel like giving up. This week was kind of like that. My diabetes freaked out on me during school, and I felt so sad because I didn't want to have everyone freaking out over me. I don't want to be the person that everyone worries about all the time, I'm more of the person who is more likely to be concerned for others. But thinking back over that day, I realize that what happened could've happened for multiple reasons. Maybe someone else had to learn something from that experience, but more likely I needed to. I got caught up in my own little world and failed to realize how wonderful my friends really are. Each of them (you!) are like gods already, you're always there for anyone who needs help or even just a shoulder to cry on. You guys are amazing! I'm so blessed to be here and to know all of you wonderful people. I don't even know if any of you will read this, but I just want you guys to know how much I love and appreciate you all. I know that how you helped me this past week, and how you always help me when things are tough, are part of the way that God shows he cares for me. Thank you for caring for me, and I hope I can be even half as good of a friend to you as you always are to me.